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04:33 pm
5/7/08

3 Victims
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aqueous_nikicus
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 You know, I always have stuff to say, but then by the time I get to LJ I don't remember what it was at all. :| My LJ is doomed to be un-interesting forever.

And I need better icons....

Feeling:
 Grah. Grah.
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01:04 am
4/21/08

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aqueous_nikicus
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 I NEED TO POST MORE.
But that's already been established.

Well, I'm angsty. So I am going to throw my angst all over LJ, since that is the sole purpose of LJ, right? Right.

I really wish I had someone to talk to right now, but no one's online, since it's 1AM and normal people sometimes sleep. Actually, Michael is on, but he doesn't really ever talk much. Which is one thing I'm angsty about since he's one of my best friends and yet doesn't really seem it at all anymore.
A few weeks/months ago he was like, "Sorry, we'll deffinitely talk more!" and we haven't spoken since then. :/

Ugh. My back hurts really bad. And I'm ill. But anyway, moving on;

I haven't spoken to David in almost a month. He went on some skiing trip thing on the 25th of March, said he'd bring his sidekick so we could talk every now and then, but apparently he didn't. I'm also fairly certain he said he'd be back on either the 10th or 15th, but it's now the 21st, and there's no sign of him what-so-ever.

I'm kind of feeling...well....nothing towards our relationship right now, other than sadness, and I've been thinking for the past 2 years I'm starting to think that the best course of action would be to break up with him and find another boyfriend or something. I've already given him so many chances to make things better, and he basically spat on all of them. And him not contacting me at all for a month is the final straw, I think.

I'm actually probably feeling depressed because I went to Comic Con this weekend, which was awesome of course, and I usually get really depressed after a big fun event because I've run out of happy-juice or some such nonsense.
(Photos are here, by the way!: http://s279.photobucket.com/albums/kk159/nikicus_conventions/ComicCon08/ I ended up going as Yuna as she's dressed in Kingdom Hearts 2, and Jessica is FFX-2 Lenne. I didn't get many pictures of other people because I figured I wouldn't bother since they'd all come out blurry and I'll probably find better ones taken by other people online).

Besides all of that, I've realized that my opinion/thoughts on different subjects(religion, politics, music, anything) changes ALL OF THE TIME. And honestly, I can't really tell if it's because I'm becoming more mature or if I just don't know who I am. It's kind of annoying.

Location:
 Behind You
Feeling:
 drained drained
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02:34 pm
3/12/08

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aqueous_nikicus
My Body is Against Me
 So, I went to bed at like 3am again last night for some asinine reason. I've been trying to go to bed earlier but it isn't really working.

And for some reason, I was exhausted, but I couldn't sleep AT ALL. Usually I atleast fall asleep in an hour or two, but, no. Every time I'd start to doze off, I'd wake up gasping for air. o_O It was really weird and scary. It's not like I couldn't breathe in the position I was in, and I don't have asthma or anything....it's like the second I fell asleep I just stopped breathing or something. xD; And it was really cold, but if I put my arms under the blankets, I'd start sweating to death. Even just the sheet. Then if I didn't I was freezing.

Then I finally decided to just get up at about 7am because my throat was really dry and I was all stiff and felt nauseated. So I got a drink, and just went back to bed again. And I actually felt a lot better after drinking something and was able to sleep for a while, so maybe I was just getting dehydrated or something...

I feel like crap again now though. It's so dry in these here parts.

Feeling:
 sick sick
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12:14 am
3/12/08

2 Victims
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aqueous_nikicus
My List of Pet Peeves

 As the title says, here's the list of my pet peeves.
 
1. When people quote movies all of the time. I never remember quotes from movies, so I never know wtf they're talking about. Also, jokes from movies aren't funny anymore when they're out of context/said by you.
 
2. When people ask "are you okay?". Unless I'm crying or bleeding out of my face, I'm probably just tired or something. It's even worse when people who I'm talking to online ask me that. They can't even see my facial expression. :| It's kind of like they WANT something to be wrong with me. They're not interested in my daily life if something good actually happened to me. I WAS okay until asked this question. 
 
3. People who act like they have to be amused every second of the day and can't STAND anything that's even a little bit boring, and can't even let anything that isn't entertaining enter their brain. Well, atleast they wont achieve enlightenment anytime soon.
 
4. When people say that a character in one of my webcomics reminds them of a character from an anime or something. I don't base my webcomic characters on characters from anime/manga/videogames/etc--in fact, I try to make characters that are(or at least look) as original as possible. This is like kryptonite to me in that when people say that, I start not wanting to even do that comic anymore because I fear that people will think I've copied someone and I really don't like copy-cats...
 
(List will be updated as I think of things)

Feeling:
 annoyed annoyed
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01:44 am
2/25/08

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aqueous_nikicus
(no subject)

Note to self: Stop joining random collabs on Smack Jeeves on the spur of the moment because they  "look like fun and I'll totally contribute!!11".

Anyway, comic plans:

  • Continue Outcast Cyrillia.
  • Start a comic with mainly male characters as practice, since I can't seem to draw guys well OR come up with interesting personalities for them...
  • Oneshot horror comic? Maybe?
  • Re-do my old comic "Velveteen", but this time make it less gay and Chobits-y :|
Feeling:
 exhausted exhausted
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11:44 pm
2/3/08

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aqueous_nikicus
Must...do...Something....Else....
 Geh.....I need to update my webcomic....

I just got Eternal Sonata the other day and have been playing it non-stop during my free time......and when I'm not, my brain hurts too much from all of the bright colors and seizure-giving attacks in the game to actually draw.

I did try drawing earlier, but instead of drawing a comic, I ended up drawing this: http://nikkibuu.deviantart.com/art/Frederic-76406926 (Frederic from Eternal Sonata. xD) @_@

Feeling:
 exhausted exhausted
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10:36 pm
1/29/08

5 Victims
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aqueous_nikicus
I AM CONFLICTED


ASASFfgfdg.

A few months ago, I came up with an awesome plotline for a horror webcomic. And I was so into it and wanted to eventually do it SOBAD.

Then this weekend, while at the hotel, my friend Emily starts telling me a storyline she came up with....

And...

IT WAS JUST LIKE MY IDEA, ONLY BACKWARDS. WHAT THE HEEELLLL. I purposely didn't say the idea outloud anywhere so the universe couldn't rape my ideas again, but somehow the idea got out to someone else anyway and it just had to be one of my friends.

Basically, the main premise of my comic was going to be that the government had come up with a new way of prosecuting murderers--by using their bodies to contain the souls of whoever they killed. And this would somehow go wrong on one of the first people this is done on, causing them to have two personalities; theirs and their murderers'. 

My friend's idea was something along the lines of that the government had decided to trap the souls of criminals in an innocent's body and it goes wrong causing split personalities, etc. *A bunch of details have been left out because I don't remember too well*.

But yes. They're both very similar. I've been planning this story for so long, but now I feel like I just can't do it since one of my friends is doing a story like it...

Then again, maybe I should just do it anyway. I'm sure they'll turn out really different. And it's not like either of us copied the other. But bleh, I don't know. It just really bothers me.

Feeling:
 crushed crushed
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07:36 pm
1/27/08

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aqueous_nikicus
Genericoon

Well, like I posted before, I went to Genericon this weekend! :D It was fun.

The first day we got there at like 6pm and spent the entire time at the vendors and artist alley. For like 4 hours. I was wearing some of my normal clothes and some people thought I was cosplaying and asked to take pictures....xD 

Then the next day I actually did cosplay, as Suiseiseki from Rozen maden(picture here: http://img363.imageshack.us/img363/5363/suiseiseki4zt.png). Incase anyone reading this doesn't know, there's this joke on 4chan about Suiseiseki and how she says "desu" at the end of every sentence, so a lot of people from 4chan came up to me and asked me to say "desu".....and then this one guy came up to me and handed me this, which he had cut out like an actual dollar:
Desu











                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                          

xDDDD. *DIES* I was like "Huh? *looks at it* ....the united states of DESU! :DD" and he laughed. Getting that made my cosplay worth while. 

Most of the people who knew who I was cosplaying as were older guys even though Rozen Maiden is really girly.......xD But well, I guess the reason for that is obvious.
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12:46 am
1/25/08

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aqueous_nikicus
(no subject)

Well, I'll be at Genericon all weekend. And as usual, I'm stressing out about having everything ready and stuff... I also feel like I'm forgetting something.

I was going to go to the BJD meetup people arranged there, but my plans for that have been foiled. FOILED. Because I'm paranoid of bringing one of my BJDs and having it break or something......I should buy a carrying case...but they're so expensive. x.x

And apparently the creators of the webcomic Mac Hall are gonna have a panel there. I used to read that comic...it's pretty cool. Maybe I'll stop by that and make them draw me shyt. :D Or just annoy them. "LOL I USED TO READ YOUR COMIC. I haven't in a while because...I just didn't... .....I forgot"

Feeling:
 stressed stressed
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04:18 pm
1/14/08

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aqueous_nikicus
Chuck E Cheese Pictures
Here's the sketch thingies me Kathleen and Jessica got at Chuck E Cheese's yesterday xD For once I'm the only one NOT wearing glasses in photos. :D (Clickable thumbnails because they're kind of big and will stretch the page):




We tried to make funny faces xD Jessica was unhappy with this one. And Kathleen isn't really doing anything...


Random hand sucking Jessica's brains out? And I look malicious. Kathleen's being normal again >0


...The most normal looking one


We thought this one was funny because we all tried to look serious and it ended up looking like one of those black and white band photos....



That is all :D

Location:
 Under your bed
Feeling:
 calm calm
Theme Music:
 Well....one of The Clash's songs is stuck in my head :D
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